I don't do lunch

and i still don't have internet at my apartment. so i am doing this now. at lunch.

so, new town for awhile now. it's still not sinking in. maybe because i don't have a couch still. maybe once i get some furniture in my apartment it will seem more like a home than some place i just happen to have a key to.

but also settling in means this is permanent. i don't know why i am treating this whole thing like a burden. maybe i should just pretend i am on some amazing adventure. where everything is temporary. including this nagging feeling in my mind. you know how you get the night before a big test? stessed (to the max) when you feel like you haven't studied enough. i feel like that every night before bed. sleep is a luxury these days and so is being rested.

i don't like anxiety.

i do enjoy riding my bike around houston though. it still scares the holymotherpearl out of me sometimes. but it's very enjoyable. i need to get my old road bike down here. so travis and i can properly begin our bike gang.

as weird and stressful as things are right now i just know one thing "everything is going to get lighteeeeeeeer, even if it never gets betteeeeer"

so excited for acl.